Just when you think life is perfect. Right? Well, kinda. Of course you get giddy remembering how he popped the question and how she said, “YES!” But wait, maybe you don’t always feel so fabulous. Maybe doubts and freak-outs are crashing your party, to the point where you’re feeling scared.
So, lately Tyson and I have noticed a couple of things about being engaged. We are trying not to panic. Everyone is telling us that it is normal and even necessary to experience these premarital feelings. Tyson and I have been honest about these feelings and discuss them regularly. But, here are some the feelings that have surfaced lately.
You Start Noticing (and Cringing at) Little Quirks
When you’re simply dating, you don’t pay much attention to his weird little quirks. But, things that used to not bother me are starting to get to me. He used to just help me cook and show me how to do things. But, now it feels like he is micro-managing me and breathing down my neck every second. He thinks I am going to end up falling in love with my career and never have time to be a mom in the future. I know that it’s not going to kill us or stick with us forever, but I don’t know why all of this little stuff is bothering us.
Your Friends Get WEIRD
The very people that were the first to come and see my engagement ring and the people who wanted to help with all the wedding details are now the ones that pretty much suck. They want to know about their bridesmaid dresses, dates, parties, and everything! I have continuously stated that I am not having bridesmaids and I am having a small intimate wedding. But, they continue to ask about what THEY are going to be doing for my wedding. It’s just a lot of unnecessary pressure!
You Turn into the Nag You Swore You’d Never Be
I always promised not to be a Bridezilla! Yet, everything about wedding planning starts to make me think there is no other option. Everyone has an opinion and they keep forgetting it’s OUR wedding day! It’s extremely annoying when people start to intrude.
You (Possibly) Feel Tempted to Cheat
Sleeping with the same person forever? That is a question that comes to mind after becoming engaged. And it’s not because your sex life together is eh. It’s that once you’re engaged, other people become the forbidden fruit. You start thinking about all the varieties you’ve never had or can’t ever sample again. Along with those thoughts sometimes you think, “It’s not so bad if I fool around, because I’m not actually married yet.” Thank goodness all of these thoughts are all our lusty daydreams and only in our head, not in our heart.
Little Signs “We’re Not Meant to Be” Start Popping Up
Once you’re engaged, insignificant situations have a way of turning into major issues. Putting the groceries away in the kitchen can sometimes turn into World War III. Things like I don’t want to work out today turns into your gonna be fat and gross later in life, huh? Or… He thinks that I am a slob and never going put my clothes away and he can’t handle it. Every little thing starts to make you wonder!
Both of You Begin to Change
About 2 months after the engagement Tyson started feel like the ring changed everything. He thought I went from being spontaneous, self-sufficient Me to a more cautious, settled, future-oriented We overnight. It’s easy to get spooked by the shift in your life. We were both scared of letting go of the “Single” “Independent” part of our lives.
Basically, we are totally over overanalyzing everything and being ridiculous. Although, it is very interesting to see how things can change after an engagement. The good thing is that we are both well aware of these issues and are working on them! J